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Can't expect any sympathies.....hate myself!

4K views 21 replies 14 participants last post by  Tamagno 
#1 ·
I had been doing so well! Then I went on a trip to my hometown, followed by by mom visiting and followed by my super-cook granny coming down. And I have been off control since July now. I had managed to get my fasting down to high eighties and then just went lax on the control. Am back on low 100s now. I can't expect any sympathies. I just had a fruitcake after dinner and I am at 143 at 1.5 hours. I hate myself after all that carb-y food but can't seem to resist them. I have 2 days of good control and then I slip badly. As I said it's just my fault. My son is 10 months now and I plan to get back to 80s by 28 nov 2013- when he turns 1. I want to see him grow and be there for all the milestones, unlike my dad who passed away through uncontrolled diabetes. You would think I would have learnt from my dad atleast but it's like all the carbs calling my name out there.

Send some self control my way. Am off for a walk to burn a bit of that fruit cake. Will post my fasting tomm.
 
#2 ·
Don't be too hard on yourself. We've all been there.

Now, as far as that carb-y food calling your name; you have to learn to ignore it! I know it is hard to resist those wonderful foods from our childhood, or family recipes, or family favorites, but you are still a pre-diabetic. Don't allow yourself to go into full on diabetes. You can prevent yourself from ever having to deal with the full blown diagnosis. Just get back on the wagon and don't look back. Or, better yet, try to turn those favorite recipes into non-carb-y recipes that you can still enjoy without the guilt and consequences. I love love love spaghetti and meatballs with homemade sauce. My Mom's sauce was always my favorite, so I paid very close attention growing up and my sauce is very very close to my Mom's. However, I cannot eat regular pasta anymore, so I make Marty's pasta pasta recipe. It is the closest to nirvana that I can get with my spaghetti sauce and meatballs. I can still enjoy it without it causing harm to my blood sugars.

I am sending lots of self-control your way, but most of it must come from your own willingness to live a long healthy life and to prevent yourself from ever becoming full blown diabetic.

Now go play with that adorable little boy of yours!
 
#3 ·
We sure know how those carbs call our names, once we get sidetracked into eating a few of them. That's the insideous part of it - we blame ourselves for being weak, and yeah - we do let ourselves be tempted - but there's the addiction also. The carbs themselves that cause the cravings for more carbs.

I know you'll get ahead of this, Paulomi . . . just keep plugging away - that's what I do. :hug:
 
#5 ·
Welcome back Paulomi! Don't waste one calorie hating yourself...you are just being human and this too will pass. Just consider yourself one day beyond it and enjoy life. You woke the dragon up and now determine to put it back asleep as we enter the season when food is a main topic. It's getting cooler here and that always leads to more time indoor and more eating.
 
#6 ·
I towed the line for well over a year and were quite chuffed with the results. Then one morning I decided 'enough now' fed-up and bored with the same foods and threw my little tantrum for a short while. Then those numbers creeps up and then reality sets in. Pick yourself up and dust yourself off, and tomorrow is another day. Acknowledgement is half the battle won :)
 
#8 ·
You need to put the guilt and self-recriminations down. You had a piece of fruit cake. That's really not a big deal. You are going to be fine. Just go back to watching your carbs and exercising and everything is going to be okay. You don't have uncontrolled diabetes. The fact that you are managing your diet and exercising means you are controlling your diabetes.
 
#10 ·
About that no-sympathy thing ... sorry to disappoint! :grouphug:

Most of us have been there, and know how very close it can get. We are literally fighting for our lives, while the audience tosses Twinkies at us. It's not fair, and it's far from easy.

On the good side, one temporary goof-up will not lose the battle for us! You aren't talking about camping out in a bakery; you had a slip-up during a family visit. Today, you're taking care of the situation, and hopping back on that horse. Good on Ya!
:cheer2::cheer2::cheer2:
 
#11 ·
Do not beat yourself up. Because then I'd have to beat myself up too, since I recently fell off the wagon so hard that I couldn't even see the wagon for a while. It was due to a lot of stress going on in my life, but the heartburn and tiredness has gone a long way to convincing me that when I'm stressed, carbs just make it worse. Why do they have to be so tasty though? Argh.
 
#12 ·
You know, funny thing is as far as the taste of those carbs, I am actually very disappointed when I do allow a forbidden moment. They just don't taste the same and I think it is psychological as well since I know it is something I shouldn't eat therefore it doesn't really taste good or satisfy a desire anymore. But, maybe that's just me.
 
#13 ·
You have the best incentive in the world to get back on track - your son.

When I feel tempted by cakes, chocolate etc I focus on the fact that in two weeks time my first grandchild will be born and I want to be around to watch him grow up.

Be strong you can do it - all of us have been there - concentrate on the positive things in your life.

All the best, Freya.
 
#17 ·
All of you are so nice! I would not have been able to be so nice and supportive, even if I was paid for it! Thanks again guys. Today is a new day and although I have my grand mom's bday party to attend (she is 75) and I am sure it won't have low carb options, but I am going to try and find them and I promise I won't binge. The day may not be as low carb as I want but I does not have have to be carb-iest day ever :)
 
#19 ·
Family and friends can pose HUGE challenges. Worse, to my mind, than getting stranded at an all-day meeting with nothing but doughnuts around.

While we're on the subject ... now, I don't wanna get into a rant or anything, but ...

(RANT ON)

Might be just my imagination ... but it seems that low-fat adherents are getting louder and louder, and ever more devoted, even as the evidence against low-fat mounts and mounts.

In this past year, I've seen several local restaurants go militantly low-fat, to the point where I must cross them off my list of possibles. Most of my extended family has finally banished all full-fat foods (except for special meats on weekends and holidays) from their kitchens. They worked very hard to achieve this.

Old beliefs, if they go away, will go away ugly. Until then, when I go anywhere, I think I'm gonna bring my own butter, mayo and dressings from now on.

(RANT OFF)

We eventually learn to anticipate these bumps in the road and create our own shock absorbers. But it does take time.
 
#22 ·
Guilt is such an interesting condition! I suspect many of us have indulged in worship at that altar far more than we would wish.

Best to get on with things. Thus far, the sun has always risen on a new day and each of those days brings the hope of doing better. You're doing fine, Paulomi, and I pray you find not only dragon-slaying strength but peace as well!
 
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