I would like to take a second and intro myself! I am a loving mother of 4 of the most wonderful boys on the planet!!! Ages :13,8,6,3!!! Yes a handful and yes stressful but I do believe that I was god handed me exactly what he thought I could handle -- of course no one mentioned it was at the redline of life!! LOL
Anyways that out of my system I will begin my journey into the poking, injecting and sometimes crazy world of what we have all come to call Life with diabetes!!! My father was a type I diabetic diagnosed at age 2.. He passed away 5 yrs ago after many years of battling many obstacles that came along with having diabetes for many years and without the technology that has come to play in today world... I would have never dreamed that at the ripe age of 30(almost 31) I would hear my doctot announce the news of " Meagan your a diabetic".. talk about shock.. talk about a slap that hit soo home that I actually hit a bottom that I didn't know how to overcome... That was Feb or 08... after many attempts at different oral medication because my doctor believed that I was a type II.. but had NO classic signs of type II... I have never been overweight (other than pregnancy and even then not overweight just pudgy lol) ... so the thought continued to linger in the back of my mind that I HAD to be type I .. no other explanation for 40 lbs weight loss, bathroom breaks that left me NOT wanting to leave home in fear of accidents ( yes I have had 4 kids remember a sneeze is a scary thing).. being tired ALL the time even with 15 hours of sleep a night and a nap the next day , to the thirst.. wow my goodness couldn't get enough of water to save me felt as though I was in a desert and there was no water around. I kinda just went along at first because I mean I am NOT a doctor I only knew what I knew about diabetes from my father's own experiences.. So started the journey on Metformin 500mg once a day .... well that did nothing for me so she bumped it to a 1000mg a day ... still nothing .. then onto 1500mg of the wonderful pill that was suppose to change my life.. the only thing it did was REALLY make me NOT want to leave the restroom haha!! I sat down with her and told her that I thought I was going crazy.. that I am still sleeping, eating and my body feels like I am drunk all the time.... so I was then changed to 1000mg of Metformin and 2mg of Amaryl... you would have thought that there would be some type of response from those meds.. nothing other than this HORRIBLE after taste that lingered in my mouth for what seemed like days in reality it was hours after taking the Amaryl. I finally started to search the internet (what a lovely tool) and to my surprise wow my symptoms pointed closer to type I and not so much type II.... I have to say that maybe it was the months that had passed or the abuse my body had taken over them but I had finally had it and made an appointment.. breaking down in her office telling her that I have WAY too many ppl in my life that count on me for their needs everyday that I can NO longer be this sick.. I can NO longer sleep or be sleepy all the time.. I can NO longer have that hungover/drunk feeling as it is dangerous to myself and my family. And that the feelings of going crazy where real.. I was going crazy popping these pills everyday with no results.. I was crazy cause I couldn't think straight.. that I couldn't feel normal... She finally agreed that it was time to draw a C-peptide and that she believed I was still type II I "might" need insulin... that yes it would make me feel better but it was not a cure for type II! I didn't care less really at that point what type I had ... I just wanted the right treatment and to feel better... I felt as though I was in a concentration camp and that there was two paths-- one would be death and at that point in all seriousness I didn't care if I followed that path.. the other was the path that finally she agreed to ... I started Lantus in May and since then have felt 100 times better than I did for months BUT I am still not 100% just yet...
I went to see an endocrinologist yesterday and he put my mind at ease... took the time needed to explain things to me further.. listened to my fears .. and basically took me from a state of fear to a state of OK this is MY new life I need to learn how to live again.. how to take the control back in my life and how to live a better life with to the ultimate. I left his office and felt as though I could breath again for the first time in 6 months!!! I know that being diagnosed with any type of life altering disease can be stressful and a fearful thing to live with.. at this point I will NOT allow this to consume me.. I will fight just like my father did and take his stride in life like he did never complained .. never worried just live it day to day as there isn't a cure for it yet.. there is no "go away " pill and there is no chance that this was a bad dream.. this is me.. and I have accepted and learned to love the new sugar free me!!! Thank you to whomever started this site as I have been a side seater for awhile and finally decided it was time to intro myself and be active.. and it is wonderful to meet all of you -- BTW the endocrinologist agrees I am not a type II.. and pls do NOT think I am dogging my PCP I just think that most primary doctors are not capable to treat this condition! Guess that is why there are specialists for certain treatments!!!
Anyways that out of my system I will begin my journey into the poking, injecting and sometimes crazy world of what we have all come to call Life with diabetes!!! My father was a type I diabetic diagnosed at age 2.. He passed away 5 yrs ago after many years of battling many obstacles that came along with having diabetes for many years and without the technology that has come to play in today world... I would have never dreamed that at the ripe age of 30(almost 31) I would hear my doctot announce the news of " Meagan your a diabetic".. talk about shock.. talk about a slap that hit soo home that I actually hit a bottom that I didn't know how to overcome... That was Feb or 08... after many attempts at different oral medication because my doctor believed that I was a type II.. but had NO classic signs of type II... I have never been overweight (other than pregnancy and even then not overweight just pudgy lol) ... so the thought continued to linger in the back of my mind that I HAD to be type I .. no other explanation for 40 lbs weight loss, bathroom breaks that left me NOT wanting to leave home in fear of accidents ( yes I have had 4 kids remember a sneeze is a scary thing).. being tired ALL the time even with 15 hours of sleep a night and a nap the next day , to the thirst.. wow my goodness couldn't get enough of water to save me felt as though I was in a desert and there was no water around. I kinda just went along at first because I mean I am NOT a doctor I only knew what I knew about diabetes from my father's own experiences.. So started the journey on Metformin 500mg once a day .... well that did nothing for me so she bumped it to a 1000mg a day ... still nothing .. then onto 1500mg of the wonderful pill that was suppose to change my life.. the only thing it did was REALLY make me NOT want to leave the restroom haha!! I sat down with her and told her that I thought I was going crazy.. that I am still sleeping, eating and my body feels like I am drunk all the time.... so I was then changed to 1000mg of Metformin and 2mg of Amaryl... you would have thought that there would be some type of response from those meds.. nothing other than this HORRIBLE after taste that lingered in my mouth for what seemed like days in reality it was hours after taking the Amaryl. I finally started to search the internet (what a lovely tool) and to my surprise wow my symptoms pointed closer to type I and not so much type II.... I have to say that maybe it was the months that had passed or the abuse my body had taken over them but I had finally had it and made an appointment.. breaking down in her office telling her that I have WAY too many ppl in my life that count on me for their needs everyday that I can NO longer be this sick.. I can NO longer sleep or be sleepy all the time.. I can NO longer have that hungover/drunk feeling as it is dangerous to myself and my family. And that the feelings of going crazy where real.. I was going crazy popping these pills everyday with no results.. I was crazy cause I couldn't think straight.. that I couldn't feel normal... She finally agreed that it was time to draw a C-peptide and that she believed I was still type II I "might" need insulin... that yes it would make me feel better but it was not a cure for type II! I didn't care less really at that point what type I had ... I just wanted the right treatment and to feel better... I felt as though I was in a concentration camp and that there was two paths-- one would be death and at that point in all seriousness I didn't care if I followed that path.. the other was the path that finally she agreed to ... I started Lantus in May and since then have felt 100 times better than I did for months BUT I am still not 100% just yet...
I went to see an endocrinologist yesterday and he put my mind at ease... took the time needed to explain things to me further.. listened to my fears .. and basically took me from a state of fear to a state of OK this is MY new life I need to learn how to live again.. how to take the control back in my life and how to live a better life with to the ultimate. I left his office and felt as though I could breath again for the first time in 6 months!!! I know that being diagnosed with any type of life altering disease can be stressful and a fearful thing to live with.. at this point I will NOT allow this to consume me.. I will fight just like my father did and take his stride in life like he did never complained .. never worried just live it day to day as there isn't a cure for it yet.. there is no "go away " pill and there is no chance that this was a bad dream.. this is me.. and I have accepted and learned to love the new sugar free me!!! Thank you to whomever started this site as I have been a side seater for awhile and finally decided it was time to intro myself and be active.. and it is wonderful to meet all of you -- BTW the endocrinologist agrees I am not a type II.. and pls do NOT think I am dogging my PCP I just think that most primary doctors are not capable to treat this condition! Guess that is why there are specialists for certain treatments!!!