tbh a counselor really will help you. Even just talking things out with someone who's engaged but not that close to you can help you clarify reasons for things you do. Many places have at least one service that will offer counseling on a sliding fee scale (if money or insurance is an issue). I'm not sure who you could contact in Canada but if this is of interest to you, I'll see what I can find on the Web.
I'm afraid I don't have any books to recommend. I can tell you that my epiphany was seeing my grandkids and realizing that if I didn't manage my diabetes well, I likely would not have a chance to watch them graduate high school or college, go on outings with them, and so on. All of a sudden, being able to eat potatoes and donuts wasn't worth it for me. That was the price of sticking around for my grandkids.
Maybe grandchildren are not in your picture. Is there something else in your life that has enough of a horizon for you to keep it in front of you as the alternative to fridge raids and treats? Maybe getting off the Jardience or whatever may come next? As I started choosing that future over the immediate gratification of food, I saw some success -- and that made it easier to keep going. Just something that gets the ball rolling for you.
I'm afraid I don't have any books to recommend. I can tell you that my epiphany was seeing my grandkids and realizing that if I didn't manage my diabetes well, I likely would not have a chance to watch them graduate high school or college, go on outings with them, and so on. All of a sudden, being able to eat potatoes and donuts wasn't worth it for me. That was the price of sticking around for my grandkids.
Maybe grandchildren are not in your picture. Is there something else in your life that has enough of a horizon for you to keep it in front of you as the alternative to fridge raids and treats? Maybe getting off the Jardience or whatever may come next? As I started choosing that future over the immediate gratification of food, I saw some success -- and that made it easier to keep going. Just something that gets the ball rolling for you.