Hi Again,
Haven't been here for the last 6 months (only posted a few times) but thought I'd share my struggles. So, the last time I was here I was getting my blood sugar under good control and brought my A1C down from 9.8 to 5.8, lost a chunk of weight, and was feeling pretty good, BUT then I got cocky......
Since I was taking metformin twice a day, I thought that would allow me to 'cheat' a little here and there, but being a compulsive eater and carb-junky you know where that road took me - to HELL!!
I ended up binging almost daily on pizza, chocolate, subs, etc. and after a few months I gained all the weight back (I was down to 290 from 320ish) and was feeling miserable once again. Finally, I hit a real low about 10 days ago after gorging on Chinese food and chocolate cake for desert - I started feeling really ill and out of sorts the next morning, so I took my blood sugar (I haven't been testing these last 6 months either - I didn't want to know) and was horrified to see it register at 350 (it took a few days for it to come under 200). I got really scared and had one of those 'moments' which shocked me back to reality.
The tricks and games I play with myself is simply unbelievable when it comes to eating what I want to eat. After seeing my blood so high it was a dark cold reminder that I was killing myself and feeling the bloat from my weight gain made it even moreso horrific. I'm amazed that I can ignore reality in my constant quest to feed the monster within - it is and always has been my struggle.
So with a fresh start and new vigor for my health, I climbed back on the wagon and will take it one day/meal at a time. It's been about 10 days now and my fasting reading this morning was at 129. Whew! I've been low carbing and doing some light exercise to get me started. Feeling a lot better already and sleeping slightly better as well (have sleep apnea). I'm going to the doc next month for my next A1C test, hopefully I haven't done too much damage.
Just thought I'd share. Hope everyone here is doing well and not struggling as much as I am.
Haven't been here for the last 6 months (only posted a few times) but thought I'd share my struggles. So, the last time I was here I was getting my blood sugar under good control and brought my A1C down from 9.8 to 5.8, lost a chunk of weight, and was feeling pretty good, BUT then I got cocky......
Since I was taking metformin twice a day, I thought that would allow me to 'cheat' a little here and there, but being a compulsive eater and carb-junky you know where that road took me - to HELL!!
I ended up binging almost daily on pizza, chocolate, subs, etc. and after a few months I gained all the weight back (I was down to 290 from 320ish) and was feeling miserable once again. Finally, I hit a real low about 10 days ago after gorging on Chinese food and chocolate cake for desert - I started feeling really ill and out of sorts the next morning, so I took my blood sugar (I haven't been testing these last 6 months either - I didn't want to know) and was horrified to see it register at 350 (it took a few days for it to come under 200). I got really scared and had one of those 'moments' which shocked me back to reality.
The tricks and games I play with myself is simply unbelievable when it comes to eating what I want to eat. After seeing my blood so high it was a dark cold reminder that I was killing myself and feeling the bloat from my weight gain made it even moreso horrific. I'm amazed that I can ignore reality in my constant quest to feed the monster within - it is and always has been my struggle.
So with a fresh start and new vigor for my health, I climbed back on the wagon and will take it one day/meal at a time. It's been about 10 days now and my fasting reading this morning was at 129. Whew! I've been low carbing and doing some light exercise to get me started. Feeling a lot better already and sleeping slightly better as well (have sleep apnea). I'm going to the doc next month for my next A1C test, hopefully I haven't done too much damage.
Just thought I'd share. Hope everyone here is doing well and not struggling as much as I am.