[jojeti]

I know its all going to take time, and I have a lot of changing to do, and Im aware how hard this will be, and I know I want all the answers NOW.... and Im clutching at straws

It will take a while even with the insulin. You may notice you may feel worse as your bgl's go down but that is because your body isn't used to lower or more normal numbers but if you give it a little time and patience, you will feel much better.