My numbers are always slightly higher closer to that time. This time of the month, plus a sinus infection, equals even higher numbers. Please hang in there. I was just like you 6 months ago. Terrified, scared, depressed. But it does get better! I am living proof. I have finally turned the corner and am enjoying my new confidence and renewed health. I have lost 50 lbs seen being diagnosed with the Big D. I did seek help via a therapist and some anti depressants but hey, we all need help sooner or later! I will be thinking about you! God bless you!