It is my desire to be able to contol my BG and I have got it lower then it was. A month ago my A1c was 7.2, and now my dont see a BG that is above 130. So between eating low carb and 2000mg of metformine a day I have come down a lot. Not quite to normal but getting there. My weight has come down 10 pounds with another 90 to go.
So I guess I'm doing ok for only being diagnosed a month ago I'm doing ok, but I'm finding the motivation to keep to what I'm doing.
I get up and take my BP and my FBG, take my Morning pills.
I try to eat low carb all day, but just really find it hard to be motivated to log my meals and do my post meal BG reading. Its like I have rested after that before why test again I guess that is my biggest lack of motivation.
TGreen,
I feel your pain. The way I try and handle this is by saying to myself that while monitoring my numbers closely is VERY important, it does nothing to change my BGs!!
So what matters is what I am actually eating or exercising. Therefore, while on most days I will test the heck out of myself (at least 10-12 times a day), some days I will take a "vacation" from testing and test maybe only a couple times a day. This keeps me in mental balance. This does not mean that I take a vacation from proper eating, but just that I don't go anal over testing on those days.
This is a life long condition. So staying motivated is important - but trying to find motivation everyday is a losing battle. I think its more a question of your testing/eating/activity becoming a *habit* rather than a chore. To get there takes time.
Please don't beat yourself over this. You will not be able to motivate yourself every single day for the rest of your life. So don't set that expectation. Try and stay as close to your goals as you can. BG readings are just that - numbers. Important numbers - but what really matters is how you change your lifestyle. And that is a long long process.
Think of this as training for a marathon. It takes long, hard work, but the rewards are so worth it (long and healthy life with minimal or no complications and being healthier that you ever were). But everyone who trains for something big has ups and downs. Just pick up any book by a famous sports-person, or successful people in any field, and you will see that this is true for everyone. You can't let the downs let you "down" as it were.
This is your marathon. This is your Mt. Everest. Life has given you an opportunity to be a true champion at something - YOUR health. Grab it with both hands - and the rewards will be rich! Sometimes it will be one step forward and two steps back. But that is PART of training for your marathon. It CANNOT be any other way.
I think I have rambled enough. Finally, let me just say that what matters ultimately is the RELATIONSHIP that you develop with this condition. You are married to this. And like every marriage it will have its ups and downs, anger and frustration. But the joys are unparalleled.
Hang in there buddy!! You are doing great!
Best!
Sufee