Hey everyone. I'm really struggling with my type 1 diabetes. I was diagnosed at 25YO in Mar '10 w/ an A1C of 8.4%. My most recent A1C was over 14% a few weeks ago. I'm sick all the time, in pain, I'm tired, and my attitude/motivation sucks, to be blatantly honest. I'm sick of taking insulin, I'm sick of counting carbs and adjusting for fat and caffeine, I'm tired of checking my blood sugar, I'm sick of not getting the results I need no matter how perfectly I manage it, I don't want to be on the phone with the doctors every single day... how do I get over this hump? I know it could be worse, but this just seems really bad and I know I can't be the only one who gets burned out on diabetes. I don't even want to eat because every time I do, I spike over 500. I don't want to take my insulin because I'm fearful of lows (I'm home by myself all day every day with 2 young children) - I've had some pretty scary experiences with both highs and lows. My diabetes team has practically doubled my insulin because it wasn't working, and I know it takes tweaking, but I just don't feel the dedication to make it work... my friends and family are starting to get really worried and that's making me worry but my energy and motivation is just gone. I need help, I've been seeing a therapist since April but we've gotten nowhere so I've stopped seeing him (I'm going to find a new therapist). I just am so disheartened, this is so hard
My doctors know my struggles, they think I'm trying to hurt myself, I'm not. I just don't want to do this anymore. How do I get through it???
Scared & lost,
Shannon
Scared & lost,
Shannon