Shanny, it's 3:23 a.m. here and I'm still wide awake (I'll sleep late). Your post is fantastic and really cheered me up. I've had depression problems all my life and I'm on Paxil right now. Also Remeron. I may need an adjustment or change. I'm not deeply depressed but I could feel better.Have you been treated for the depression before, Rosa? Are you on any meds now?
I've taken fluoxetine (SSRI) for several years, but I seem overcome lately with acute inertia & barely get out of my chair. "Let things go" is exactly what happens. My doc has now changed my antidepressant to venlafaxine (SNRI), thinking it may restore some energy, so here's hoping.
I rather agree with you that being rid of the depression first could give you the strength to conquer the rest - you have a happy marriage & a lot of reasons to stick around a good many more years . . . perhaps even some grandchildren will come along, which are about the most fun thing on earth! I just wonder if you should seek a doctor's help in dealing with the despondency . . . it surely couldn't hurt. We're about the same age - so let's not throw in the towel just yet!
And rest assured there are plenty of us capable of creating walls of text, so "this space" is yours for the taking! I'm a bit of a nightowl myself sometimes.
I can identify very well with your feeling of inertia. I'm experiencing a mild loss of interest in things I usually enjoy, but as I stated, I'm not severely depressed, and believe me, I've been there.
I called a service our ins. provides a little while ago. They're available 24/7. I spoke with a very nice nurse who suggested what you just did - that I see a doctor to treat the depression. I knew that but your and her prompting is just what I needed to get motivated. I have a psychologist whom I haven't seen in a while but he's very good and I'm calling him tomorrow to schedule an appt. (I should never have stopped my therapy.)
So we're about the same age And I certainly don't want to throw in the towel; I love life and esp. MY life. My husband and I live a very quiet, low-key lifestyle but we're happy this way.
Does diabetes cause depression? My depression started at about age 7 - I found out years later that my biol. father, whom I never met, had bouts of it all his life. It can be inherited. Diabetes runs on my mother's side of the family...rampant, I might add. Lucky us, huh? Oh, I was diagnosed with Type II diabetes at about age 44. Since it was familial, I'd been checked regularly since age 11, believe it or not. There was a question about my having it then, but it turned out I did not. Glucose tolerance test.
I will care more about the diabetes when I feel better about myself, I know that. Thanks so much for your absolutely lovely post. This forum is invaluable and I feel better just being here. I look forward to speaking with you and the others here regularly.