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Well...stupid me really...I have no one to blame but myself here. When I was so out of control and happily living in denial I was really damaging my eyes it seems. Now that I am in good control....the symptoms of the damage have started showing. Funny thing...its been explained to me that this is not uncommon. Once you get in control, your eye disease will get worse if you have it. I am sitting here now only half way being able to see what I am doing since my eyes are *still* diated from my exam...so please excuse any glaring typos
I am fortunate in that I dont have much proliferative retinopathy. What I do have is macular edema from "leaky vessels". She said it isnt severe....but its enough that it is causing me that horrible light sensitivity and distortion when I first wake up in the mornings. She thinks its worse then because I have been lying down for hours and fluid shifts in my eyes. Once I am awake for a little while and fluid shifts around again it goes away. First order of business...I have to go on the 17th and they will give me an IV contrast agent and take pictures of both eyes to see what vessels are still leaking. Once that is done, I will need laser on both eyes to stop it. She told me at least I caught it early before too much damage is done, but somehow that doesnt make me feel any better about super heated lasers burning my eyes 
So...word of warning kiddoes.....denial might be a happy place for awhile....but you have no idea what damage you are doing long term. If only I had taken care of things like I *should* have been doing I wouldnt be in this mess now. Somehow the twinkies and pasta and milkshakes dont really seem worth it anymore
So...word of warning kiddoes.....denial might be a happy place for awhile....but you have no idea what damage you are doing long term. If only I had taken care of things like I *should* have been doing I wouldnt be in this mess now. Somehow the twinkies and pasta and milkshakes dont really seem worth it anymore