Wysteria,Hey there, I'm feeling pretty overwhelmed and pretty angry at my body right now. I've been diagnosed with this adult onset type 1 diabetes for about 5 months now, and I've gone through the initial burst of enthusiasm to work this whole thing out, and now I'm in the angry denial stage.
I haven't got my sugars under control properly yet, and I've avoided testing them for 2 weeks now because it was so frustrating. I think they are high because I've been feeling sick again like I did before I was diagnosed. I;m taking my insulin, but have avoided my endocronologist for 3 weeks because he wants to put me on the basal bolus (sp) regime and it really scares me, the thought of more injections.
I'm a 34 year old woman, a mother, and I know I have to get healthy and in control of this, but right now, i'm sitting here crying because it all feels too much. The last straw was (oh the shame and indignation) was wetting my bed last night. I googled night wetting and realised that it must be linked to my diabetes, and this has just made me so upset.
I'm really sorry to introduce myself like this, but i really hope that I can find some encouragement and help here, because I think I really need it. It's midnight here in Oz, so I may not post anymore tonight, but I would really love to know if this kind of denial and anger is normal!
i understand what you're going through. I'm a 19 year old male, healthy size, healthy weight and this too, is beginning to effect me. I was grand when i was first diagnosed as 1.5 (at the age of 17), i was enthusiastic to keep on top, kept track of my readings etc., but now thanks to college, everything has gone into a downward spiral. College has made me wreckless with the condition and medication. Lke you, i had an accident after an awful lot to drink, i understand though that its a side effect of the condition and i have to keep soldiering on. I have learnt the hard way as regards alcohol intake. Also like you, as i know that my condition is deteiorating i have avoided my readings.
I know myslef that its just a matter of copping on and I also know that this is manageable if you can keep on top as i have been there before. Although like i said i have been wreckless, im now making an attempt at keeping my head above water, i have started to exercise which helps keep the levels down and have also taken the expensive but worthwhile step of joining a gym. i am also trying to get into the routine of taking tests and meds too. This is all just a case of getting the balance right and i hope that this helps in easing youre frustration and "shame" as you know that you arent the only person to go through this.
Best of Luck...